In the same realm of the whole routine dilemma comes the issue of vacations. We just had a really nice one in Corpus, but it was only nice during the waking hours. Nights were NOT good for me or Sawyer. He wakes up, confused about where he is, and cries. Then, he doesn't want to go back in his pack and play, since it's not his bed. (This is me interpreting his actions--but I think I'm pretty close since this behavior is different than at home.) I end up trying to put him in bed with us, just desperate to go back to bed, and then he wants to nurse all night, which I do NOT want. But when you're sharing a room with baby, leaving him to scream in the pack and play two feet from your bed really is ineffective for sleep as a whole. In fact, our vacay to Louisiana, wonderful as it was, ended Sawyer's first week of sleeping through the night, and it has never resumed.
Last night Rob and I stayed at some church friends' house who were out of town. Rob wanted me to try their Temper Pedic mattress, which he thinks will save his back. Suffice to say that I don't remember how I liked the mattress because I barely slept. In fact, I had a middle of the night meltdown like never before, where I'm pretty sure I cussed and may or may not have thrown things, and where I dragged Sawyer's pack and play down the hall and left him screaming in it. Not my best moment.
Thankfully, there's Rob, who calmed Sawyer down (who was probably more freaked out by me freaking out than the strange hallway he was sleeping in at that point) and calmed me down. But still. I made a vow in the night not to travel anymore because I just can't handle Sawyer's inability to sleep in a strange environment right now. Especially after a long week, which began at the beach with no sleep for the same reasons. Next week, it's all routine, baby, all the way. I don't want to go anywhere unusual. I don't want to change one thing about Sawyer's routine. I want us both to sleep in peace.
So, I'm sure now that I've made this vow, a hundred things will go wrong, but don't take it away from me yet, okay? I'm still somewhat hopeful for a person running on four non-consecutive hours of sleep.
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